Dear Knox, Part I: The beginning

Dear Knox,

My sweet, sweet boy…where to start?  So much to say…First off, let me tell you a little bit about how you came to be our Knox.  Me and B decided (ok, I begged, pleaded and convinced him) that it was finally time to get a dog… this was after my whole entire life of begging and pleading for a dog.  The time finally came.  We knew we wanted to adopt and rescue an animal in need of a home.  We also knew, living in Baltimore, our city shelter was busting at the seams with pitbull type dogs.  We did a little bit of googling, and decided as long as we were committed to being a responsible owner (as any dog owner should), why not?  Let’s go rescue a pitbull.  So off we went.  We contacted MABB and met a few of their dogs.  We decided it would be best to adopt a dog from a rescue instead of straight from the shelter since we wanted some background info and weren’t home during the daytime, so housebroken was important to us.  All the dogs we met seemed perfect, on paper, but we just didn’t connect.  We asked ourselves, “what’s wrong with us?!  We’ve met some great dogs?!  Great with kids, other dogs, running buddies…why don’t  we love any of them?”

We just hadn’t met you yet.

So off we went to BARCS, with the thought that if we didn’t love the dogs in foster already, going to meet these wild, pent-up dogs with no manners and tons of energy, may convince us otherwise.  So we walked through the shelter.  We were shocked…so many dogs, such a big place, how could we ever even narrow it down?  We did a walk through, and you caught my eye.  You were sitting (deceptive little boy!) and staring at us.  I made a mental note to come back and meet this “Oil Change”.  Our escort picked a few dogs for us to meet, and they were all ok.  I remembered you though, and I asked if we could go meet that big blocky-headed dog named “Oil Change”.  We couldn’t find you at first, but I was relentless.  We walked all five rooms till we found you.  Waiting.  For us.You, sneaky boy, were wild.  WILD.  But you loved us right away, and we loved you.  We met you at first in an escort room.  Small, tight space, but we weren’t intimidated by your jumping, your tail, your huge head and that awesome smile.  We wanted to take you outside to the run.  You were in HEAVEN.  And you loved to run!  But you kept coming right back to us, and sitting on our feet.  The fresh air, the open space, you loved it!  But you loved us too.  And that was a good sign to us.  We couldn’t stop smiling.

your first night at home

We knew then and there that you were going to be ours.  We asked what the next step was, and they told us we paid the adoption fee and city registration, and you were ours.  We only had 24 hours to pick you up.  We were SO unprepared. So unprepared, that you came with us to PETCO to get your goodies, and a nice bath since you were so stinky and gross. 

And little did we know, our life as we knew it would be forever changed, because boy did you have plans for us!

to be continued…

61 thoughts on “Dear Knox, Part I: The beginning

  1. Hi. There are no words to express how sorry I am to hear about Knox. He sounds like an amazing friend and I would like to thank you for sharing him with us. My heart is with you …

  2. We have just heard about your beloved Knox crossing to the Bridge. We are sorry for the loss of Knox but know he is running free at the Bridge. He sounds like he was an awesome fur-baby and do so much good in the world, to be taken so soon. {{HUGS}} sniffs, The HoundDogs

  3. What a wonderful story of how it all began. They say you don’t pick the dog, but the dog picks you… and it sounds like he did just that 🙂 I can’t wait to hear the rest of your letter to Knox. Hugs!

  4. I heard about Knox’s battle with a blood parasite and untimely death this morning from ‘Love, Peace & Fostering’ and ‘Running with Squirrels.’ As a guardian who has lost beloved companion animals, I have been through this heartache. Knox was clearly a very special creature who had marched straight into your hearts. He will always be there. Nothing can change that. I send you warmest hugs in this very difficult time of missing your sweet man. Kisses on Knox’s little nose, RIP, sweet boy.

  5. A friend sent this poem to me when I lost my last sweet girl, and told me that nothing loved is ever lost … it sounds like Knox will live on in many hearts.

    God saw that you were getting tired and a cure was not to be…
    So He put His arms around you and whispered, “Come with Me.”
    With aching hearts, we watched you suffer and saw you fade away.
    Although we loved you dearly, we could not help you stay.
    A Loving Heart stopped beating, A special friend put to rest.
    God broke our hearts to prove to us He only takes the best.
    – Author Unknown

  6. Thanks for writing this letter to Knox. It reminds me of every dog I’ve ever loved and those I love now. What a sweet, sweet boy, that Knox, and a sweet family to love him so much. Love to you from me, Chan, Datsun, and Savvy. p.s. the turtles don’t have much to say about anything, so I didn’t include them. c:

  7. So many tears are flowing from my eyes as I read this – Knox was YOUR dog before you even knew it! He was waiting patiently for YOU to find him, take him home, help him meet his potential, and forever change the trajectory of your life. I know it will be hard to write these posts, but I hope it is cathartic for you. Thinking of you, Jess!

  8. We got our pitty in May of 2010 also, and before we knew it, Wilbur became our world. Your pictures of Knox could be our pictures… such expressions these dogs have, their goofy personalities, but mostly their desire to love and be loved. We don’t expect to lose our friends at such a young age and I can’t imagine what you’re going through right now.

  9. I lost my first pit to Leukemia at the age of 7. One day he was great, the next he was sick…and 10 days later he was gone. It’s been three years and we’ve welcomed another pit into our home who fills us with joy and took up the helm of annoying our older female terrier mix, just like his pittie spirit brother before him. Even now as I type this message, I’m crying for the one who died too soon; however, I’d never trade the wonderful 7 years I had. Big hugs to you and I bet your Knox and my Ollie are having a great time on the other side of the Rainbow Bridge!

  10. Such heartbreak. I brought my first shelter boy home at the same time you brought Knox into your life. It’s amazing how much they can change your life in under two years. I kiss my boy every day on his big wide forehead, and there’s something about Knox’s face that brings that to mind. We will miss him. Thank you for sharing your story.

  11. I have been following your blog for awhile now but have never commented. I just wanted to express my deepest sympathies to you all. I am so sorry for your loss. I am thinking of you.

  12. Dear Knox’s peeps…Mom and I came over from Mayzie’s blog to tell you how very sorry we are to read about Knox’s trip to the bridge…he was such a handsome boy and we could see love in his eyes and his peeps eyes. Our thoughts and purrs are with you
    Thank you for sharing Knox’s story..we’ll be back
    Hugs Madi and Mom

  13. with a knot in my throat I come to your blog for the first time… this post, oh, so beautiful. This is how we all discover these amazing dogs. By chance, unprepared for what we are stepping into.

    Handsome Knox made an impact, larger than you know. Thinking of you, today and praising the beautiful life you gave him. ❤

  14. So, so, so sorry for your loss. I lost my 3.5-year old lab overnight to a mysterious hemhorragic illness and it was absolutely devastating…but over time I think you’ll find you can focus on all the good memories and be grateful. Thank you for all you did for Knox and the greater pit bull rescue community, and virtual ‘hugs’ for the near-term sadness.

  15. I am so so so sorry to hear about Knox. I can only imagine how you are feeling right now and my heart breaks for you all. I am going to miss coming by and seeing his joyful face and reading about his silly antics. He was a very special dog and will never be forgotten by anyone who read this blog. Thank you for bringing him home and sharing his story.

  16. I am so sorry to hear about Knox. We just lost 2 brother beagles in a matter of weeks–we didn’t even know in time to start treatment of any kind so we understand the pain all too well. We are sending many hugs.

    River & his mom

  17. WE are so sorry about Knox. We came over from Mayzie’s and we have lots of animals and know how hard it is to lost a fur friend. We sure do send tons of woofs and some purrs too. Great big hugs for the Mom and Dad. You are in our thoughts and prayers.

  18. I am sorry I didn’t get to know Knox until now, and I can’t tell you how sorry I am that you had to say goodbye to him so soon. From whet I’ve been reading, he sounds like he was an amazing, loving dog and he was lucky to have found you (and you him!). Sending lots of healing thoughts your way~

  19. I too have just learned of Knox’s passing and wanted to offer my condolences. Losing a pet is absolutely heartbreaking and even though you know it is inevitable when you open your heart to an animal, it doesn’t make it any easier to say goodbye. I enjoyed reading about how you found each other and look forward to reading the next step in your relationship. Hugs to you.

  20. So sorry for your loss of your beloved Knox. We lost our 9 year old Boxer, Rufus, to the same thing. The loss is unbearable but know that he is in a place where he can run free and not hurt any longer.

  21. We just came from Mayzie’s blog. We are so very sorry to hear about Knox. It’s so hard to lose your best friend. I hope that Knox has found My Maggie and they are playing at the Rainbow Bridge together.

    Love ya lots,

  22. We just heard about your loss..our hearts go out to you, he must have been a most wonderful boy and a perfect family member. I hope knowing that he knew love with you till the very end gives you some comfort. There is never enough time, and hea was far too young..I hope your tears will stop and you’ll remember the good times, his big smile and happy wagging tail, and the joy you all shared.Thank you for giving him a loving home
    smoochie healing kisses from Asta and mommi

  23. What a beautiful post, it made me cry! I second A from Two Pitties’ sentiments that I love hearing dogs’ origin stories. I really do believe that they find “their” people, and that was certainly the case for you two and Knox. Thank you for sharing. ❤

  24. We were so incredibly sorry to hear of Knox’s passing. Your letter to him was beautiful and it goes without saying that I read it with tears streaming down my face. I know from reading your posts how valiantly Knox fought, and how valiantly you fought for and with him. I also know how dearly it must have cost you to put his needs before your own, and to let him go when you realized it was time. Our hearts go out to you in this time of grief, and although we didn’t know Knox except through you and this blog, we will greatly miss the sight of his sweet face, and the tales of his exploits as told through your eyes. I only wish every dog in the world could have people who cherished them as you did Knox, right up until the end. He will never be forgotten … not by you, and not by any of us who grew to love him through you.

  25. I was hesitant to tell you how emotional I’ve gotten over Knox’s passing because I’m sure it pales in comparison to what you’re going through…but seriously, every time I read your or Brian’s facebook wall or read your blog, I start crying. I’m glad you’re documenting the happy memories you had together. Sending love your way…

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  28. I just found your blog and wanted to express how sorry I am for your loss. I cannot imagine the pain you must feel, but let me say, Knox was loved so much and he had a great life with you guys. You gave him happiness. This “Dear Knox: The beginning,” is wonderful and had me tearing up right away. A couple of my dogs are 11 years old now, and I see them slowing down….just the thought of not having them breaks my heart. One makes me feel better is that my husband and I have given a great life to these dogs and they in turn made us happier than we expected.

    I’ll stop now. Sorry.

    My thoughts are with you and your hubby.

    PS. Know looks like our Pitbull Tommy.

  29. Hello, you don’t know me – I read about Knox on Mayzie’s blog and I have just read your blog and I had to comment. I am so sorry to read of your loss – Knox sounds like such an awesome, incredibly cool dog and it is so wonderful to read about how you made his life so incredibly fantastic. Losing such a beloved member of the family is heartbreaking, it is such a horrible, empty loss and there is little that can be said to ease that pain. The wonderful thing, though, is that you provided Knox with a life of love, happiness, adventures and joy and even though that life was cut far, far too short, know that you achieved wonderful things with him and he was so much better for being part of your family and how much joy and love he brought to your lives.

    Groucho and Trish

  30. Mayzie sent me. And now I don’t know what to say. Really I don’t. And that’s unusual for me…So sad, but, really, when you think about it, Knox had the BEST LIFE with you! And he thanks you so much.

    ArroOOO, Stuart

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